why do we fallow

( we are the first and last wall between them and your land , you know that right)  (( the claw commander said in an even tune with out lifting his head to look at the over dressed massenger of the banyan kingdom  , yes your highness we know, that all the land knew it and your effort are much appreciated but we cannot keep on sending the youngling only to have them brought back to their families a broken souls . they are not broken they  just knew what you only trying to avoid thinking about , once this wall falls your land and kingdoms and titles you whole existence is no more so keep sending me your boys for they still young and can and will understand what we are facing here .)) that was an archived talk by you , where is any thing that has not been in those papers , do you need more time before you submit them for storage ? the lady of the words asked me , and as always my response is ( it is as it happened I wont edit my records) ---------------------------------------------------

Time heal every thing  Ohh really does it really heals , strange the doctor didn’t write that in my prescription  , he wrote meds meds and a lot a fff…. Hmm I won’t say it don’t do that face , he  is making me aginny pig a test subject , no sane man or a women should be given such a mount of drugs or meds , I know I know it’s to ease the pain but why we need to ease pain why the need to feel less of something which tells us your are a live and you are a idiot to allow such thing to happen . 

it never easy to just run , to just let go and leave , i was in my 40s when I just opened the door of my house and left every thing and walked away from it all , looking back to that day I think I did the right thing I left I just left , you know I just left I never thought about it ever again till this day , I had a good life family friends a supportive community A safety net if you like and I didn’t want to have a net , they didn’t understand it “ just tell us what happend “ they called the police to file a missing person and I called to tell them I AM not missing I just want to get out of the net that slow motion river  of life , I never fall in love not really don’t know why but it wasn’t that of a big part or a wool to persue , I wanted the scars of life to show on me physically  and in spirit , ahh sorry you wanted the candy sorry my boy  When you leave just tell him to came in I AM ready , thank you for the knock on the door .  That what he said father I didn’t see any one out s

“I am in the drive way” He said it over the phone in a whisper kind of tone  “Good , now turn off the engine for five minutes and start it again and wait , did any one saw you “ the voice on the other side asked  “ yes , one of the neighbors” “Good now just do as we planned and wait, she will be out in 10 minutes , as we agreed you are to drive to the compound and stop for nothing , once there you are to take command of the compound , our .. friends will join you in 7 days no more , this is the last time you and I shall speak , tell her I loved her and …be careful “ That was my plan which I have been formulating for the past 3 years at least , the first true step of it since … they found out the potential  of my invention and taken full control of it  My name is Adam I am a researcher in the multi international company so big that government bow before them in the board sets 6 members who in 7 days will be immortal and in 3 years shall be known as gods for my invention shall make them

Do I know how old I am ?  I be been called ages ago  At first they tried to cure me and that failed then they tried to drive the demons away but there were non  Then they give up and sent me on my way  I was not old enough to travel by my own but the calling was ever present always there sometimes I manege to hide it in the recess of my thought and live a happy day  That was till one day I saw him and the voice subsided just by being near to him the voice fanished so as long as I can I filleted him I knew how far from his eyes the voices quite but after few days he fought me and knew once he saw me what I am  Come walk with me I know what in the back of your mind I hear her as you do  We left the next day no names no doubt just familiarity between us we slept we eat what he provided and the road was … away to home ! I knew this road at night I look at the stars and as if the knew I am coming back home  What home I never knew at the time what was is it or what is wrong with me  Why my o

Every thing has changed ..not to know the road any more ..fog all around .. i can hear a storm coming  ...for not to know left from right is something ...but alas  i cannot see it ... my destination seems far far away in this fog .. i am here to tell a story or was it a dream .... i cant remmeber which is which but i know it to  be in my heart ...                                                                 sand castle its a tell of an incent sand land story .. in every land every culture there is a tell of mighty hereos and great dragon like creatures ...and my home is no diffrent ...i live in a small town not far away from a main city by the sea ...but while my peers where dreaming of life aboard ships a dreamt of her ...on  fast shifting land of sand and what ...i dont  know ..some thing is there ..i hear her calling ..but just behind her voice there is an eco ..a dangerous sound .....a subtle but its there ...  last night was my 17 birthday ...and as it always in