why do we fallow

Time heal every thing  Ohh really does it really heals , strange the doctor didn’t write that in my prescription  , he wrote meds meds and a lot a fff…. Hmm I won’t say it don’t do that face , he  is making me aginny pig a test subject , no sane man or a women should be given such a mount of drugs or meds , I know I know it’s to ease the pain but why we need to ease pain why the need to feel less of something which tells us your are a live and you are a idiot to allow such thing to happen . 

it never easy to just run , to just let go and leave , i was in my 40s when I just opened the door of my house and left every thing and walked away from it all , looking back to that day I think I did the right thing I left I just left , you know I just left I never thought about it ever again till this day , I had a good life family friends a supportive community A safety net if you like and I didn’t want to have a net , they didn’t understand it “ just tell us what happend “ they called the police to file a missing person and I called to tell them I AM not missing I just want to get out of the net that slow motion river  of life , I never fall in love not really don’t know why but it wasn’t that of a big part or a wool to persue , I wanted the scars of life to show on me physically  and in spirit , ahh sorry you wanted the candy sorry my boy  When you leave just tell him to came in I AM ready , thank you for the knock on the door .  That what he said father I didn’t see any one out s

“I am in the drive way” He said it over the phone in a whisper kind of tone  “Good , now turn off the engine for five minutes and start it again and wait , did any one saw you “ the voice on the other side asked  “ yes , one of the neighbors” “Good now just do as we planned and wait, she will be out in 10 minutes , as we agreed you are to drive to the compound and stop for nothing , once there you are to take command of the compound , our .. friends will join you in 7 days no more , this is the last time you and I shall speak , tell her I loved her and …be careful “ That was my plan which I have been formulating for the past 3 years at least , the first true step of it since … they found out the potential  of my invention and taken full control of it  My name is Adam I am a researcher in the multi international company so big that government bow before them in the board sets 6 members who in 7 days will be immortal and in 3 years shall be known as gods for my invention shall make them

Do I know how old I am ?  I be been called ages ago  At first they tried to cure me and that failed then they tried to drive the demons away but there were non  Then they give up and sent me on my way  I was not old enough to travel by my own but the calling was ever present always there sometimes I manege to hide it in the recess of my thought and live a happy day  That was till one day I saw him and the voice subsided just by being near to him the voice fanished so as long as I can I filleted him I knew how far from his eyes the voices quite but after few days he fought me and knew once he saw me what I am  Come walk with me I know what in the back of your mind I hear her as you do  We left the next day no names no doubt just familiarity between us we slept we eat what he provided and the road was … away to home ! I knew this road at night I look at the stars and as if the knew I am coming back home  What home I never knew at the time what was is it or what is wrong with me  Why my o